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Name: Eunice
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 1/14/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: JC. Reading, listening to music, watching movies, going to the BEACH, camping, and playing. Learning how to play the guitar and how to fish. Saving the world. Last but not least, YOU. :D
Expertise: Laughing in Spanish... jaja :)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
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Member Since:
1/23/2003
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| I wanted to avoid reading this book because the reviews made this book seem as though it was a "liberal" book.
But there are so many passages in this book that strikes so many chords within my heart...
The agonies and tragedies I've struggled with within my own heart at the slumbering churches, failing to be the hope and light that God has called us to be..
The heart wrenching, beautiful testimonies of the author...
I felt tears crawling to my eyes as I read this passage...
"Over and over, the dying and the lepers would whisper the mystical word namaste in my ear. We really don't have a word like it in English (or even much of a Western conception of it.) They explained to me that namaste means, "I honor the Holy One who lives in you." I knew I could see God in their eyes. Was it possible that I was becoming a Christian, that in my eyes they could catch a glimpse of the image of my Lover?"
While I could only dress up as Mother Teresa and do an "autobiography" of her life in my fourth grade presentation. Claiborne, actually got the chance to do a summer internship with Mother Teresa...
It sucks that I'll never be able to see Mother Teresa alive... but at the same time, reminded that doing ministry is never about doing these great works with great leaders, nor even being successful in our ministry... but being faithful to our king of kings, Jesus...
As quoted in this book... "We are called not be successful but to be faithful."
The natural self in me drives and desires to be successful, but I guess part of learning to die to oneself, taking up the cross, and to have Christ live in me... is to die to these desires that lives within me...
Gotta be faithful in the little things....
Lord prepare me,
to be a sanctuary,
pure and holy,
tried and true...
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i am proud to say that i have made my first dduk-guk today.
it was surprisingly good, with the except of a little too much garlic and a little too much salt 
i realized that sometimes, i'm so afraid to cook unless i have a specific set of direction because i am so afraid of messing up!!!
but a lot like life, i have to just try things with the little i know...
boil the water,
add the anchovy for broth (how much of it do i add?),
add the eggs...
wait... i forgot the garlic... and how much of it do i add?
so much like the questions i have about life.... i find myself not knowing the details, just flavoring my way through...
what kind of guy do i want to get married to?
what grad school will i go?
the details of the whens and wheres in my life stubbornly remains mysterious.. even though the day of my graduation and entrance to the "real" world draws near...
ahhh... only if all my questions to life came in a simple recipe book of life...
but maybe God gave us this freedom to express His creativity...
there's never a set amount of ingredients required to make a certain korean food.
if you like more garlic, you add more of it...
if you prefer to have your food a bit salty, you can always add more salt according to your taste..
or you can try mixing and matching different tastes to create that perfect blend of sauce...
when cooking, you have to feel free to use your creativity to create new flavors, or even improve the flavors of your food.
in the same way, i realize that our God gives us that room and space of the unknown, to express His creativity in our world and in us as unique individuals... and we, made in His image, are also given the freedom to also express our creativity and influence in the world.
i've always loved to bake, because baking gave you a certain set of ingredient to bake a certain cake...
but i want to start cooking more, to give myself the grace and mercy to make mistakes and the freedom to creatively express myself... and my taste. 
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| God spoke to me today.
Once again, in my political theory discussion.
One of the class discussion was why Plato in the Republic talks about an imaginary, utopian society...
What's his point?
I forgot what our classmates reponse was, but our TA gave an allusion to drawing a perfect circle...
We can all imagine in our head what a perfect circle looks like, but none of us are able to draw that perfect circle. In the same way, we can all imagine a perfect form of government, world, or society... without already having that perfect form of governing in society.
Then it clicked in my head that it's the same with bringing God's Kingdom on earth.
In the scripture God says, "The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently." (Romans 8:19-25)
Is there anything/one more worthy on earth, that deserves our worship, praise, and life besides our God who is the only being that is truly good, true, and beautiful?
Yet nothing on earth reflects this quality of our Maker who have created this world and even us... due to the sad three lettered word called sin.
BUT!!! Because of what Jesus did on that cross, we have new hope... hope of restoration, and of new life.
In times of discouragment, I thank my dad (my earthly father), for having named me Eunice, which means, good victory. It reminds me of the victory we have in Jesus, and to keep fighting the good fight here on earth.
As God begins to remind me of what is means to live a Christian life, and what it means to follow in His precious son's footsteps... I find myself praying the same prayer that Jesus prayed to His Father...
"My food," said Jesus, "is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work. Do
you not say, 'Four months more and then the harvest'? I tell you, open
your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest.
Open my eyes Jesus, for my food, is to do the will of our Father.
I had a dream about two nights ago?
It was such a precious dream to me, that I decided to write it here to share with y'all.
I had a dream that I had a son.
He was around the age of 5 and he was playing with other kids his age.
The kids were being kids, goofing around and being a little rowdy... and in the midst of their rowdyness one kid got hit by another kid, and eventually that kid that got hit, socked back the other kid on the head.
So the kid who just got socked decided to hit him back by doing a flip, and in that midst, he unintentionally kicked my son on the head...
There was a little scar on his head, so I picked him up and asked, "What are you going to do, now that you got hit?" And he replied, "Nothing... As long as you protect me mom and you take care of me..."
As I heard those words from my "son," my love for my "son" quadrupled and multiplied as I saw my own child trust me and my authorities as his mother to protect and guide him...
I was so proud of him, and in the next scene, I found myself in front of an audience ready to brag about my good son... (I realized then that I already had a natural korean ahjummah tendency of bragging about my kid)
I woke up, still feeling that love for that boy, and thinking...."Man, I want a kid right now..." Haha...
But at the same time, I was reminded of the relationship that God wants with me... how He wants me to trust Him and His character and in who He is...
and reminded of the faith verse Hebrews 11, "All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. Instead, they were longing for a better country -- a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city them..."
"And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."
I want to be known by my faith, and live a life that pleases God.
Poop happens in life, and though we live life in the midst of it... help me to keep my eyes on you and to live that life of faith.
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i am a dreamer.
i think i spend a lot of my time in another place,
in some other place and moment and time... but it's never, might i assure you, in the present.
a lot of my thoughts relive in some past memories
or just mere possible memories that could happen out of certain situation or circumstance
on top of that, i think i do a lot of wishful thinking...
creating my own world in my head in which i unconsciously find convenience and comfort
but lately, i've been finding the need and urgency for me to break out of that...
as i find myself "rudely" awaken by the realities of this world
perhaps i think that's why i'm drawn to urban planning because it forces me to look at the world as it really is...
to look at issues such as immigration, poverty, homelessness... as it really is
the dreamer side of me is optimistic, and hopeful... and truly believes that people can eradicate poverty
but the rational side of me tells me that issues like these are complex, and maybe.... unsolvable?
gosh, how do you solve these issues... and sometimes i think of the words of my homie, Jesus, "you will always have the poor with you" and think... is it even worth it to give my life to this cause just to try?
At times like these, I can't help but to rethink the meaning of life, living life abundant, and what it means to follow Jesus
JESUS, what do you want me to do with my life?
What does it mean to follow you?
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During most of my lectures in my political science classes, I find myself correlating many political theories and concepts with the Christian paradigm of life...
So in my ancient political theory class today, we discussed what or how a just society looks like..
And before we even began our TA tossed out good questions such as..
What is justice?
What makes a just society?
The ancient Athenians believed that justice entails these two beliefs... to help friends, and to harm enemy.
When the TA asked if this is the type of justice we in society nowadays, one student said, "No."
My heart skipped... I thought maybe she will talk about God's justice and how God's justice speaks of loving our neighbors... but who was I kidding, would anyone be bold enough to speak of God in a "secular" discussion?
The class actually seemed puzzled by this seemingly simple question...
What really is just?
What is a moral thing to do? And who defines this morality?
Is justice what the masses believe to be true?
People who opposed democracy and favored oligarchy, opposed democracy with the argument that not everyone is capable or adequately educated to judge what is right or good...
When I study politics, wars, and the nature of human beings...
I see how people are so lost even with basic questions like defining what is good, just, and moral...
In moments of these realizations I thank God for showing us the Way, for being our light, and showing us how to live life that is full and abundant...
For His laws and His Ways are higher than ours, and designed for our good.
I wonder what society would look like if they surrendered their selfish ambitions, greed, and evil desire to the Lord, and allowed His passionate love for His people to transform them...
Vengeance is God's and His alone...
Heaven on Earth is when everyone acknowledges Jesus as Lord... and submit to His way, authority and governing...
Imagine a society like that!!
Peace on Earth -U2
Heaven on Earth
We need it now
I'm sick of all of this
Hanging around
Sick of sorrow
I'm sick of the pain
I'm sick of hearing
Again and again
That there's gonna be
Peace on Earth
Where I grew up
There weren't many trees
Where there was we'd tear them down
And use them on our enemies
They say that what you mock
Will surely overtake you
And you become a monster
So the monster will not break you
And it's already gone too far
You said that if you go in hard
You won't get hurt
Jesus can you take the time
To throw a drowning man a line
Peace on Earth
Tell the ones who hear no sound
Whose sons are living in the ground
Peace on Earth
No who's or why's
No one cries like a mother cries
For peace on Earth
She never got to say goodbye
To see the color in his eyes
Now he's in the dirt
Peace on Earth
They're reading names out
Over the radio
All the folks the rest of us
Won't get to know
Sean and Julia
Gareth, Anne, and Breeda
Their lives are bigger than
Any big idea
Jesus can you take the time
To throw a drowning man a line
Peace on Earth
To tell the ones who hear no sound
Whose sons are living in the ground
Peace on Earth
Jesus in the song you wrote
The words are sticking in my throat
Peace on Earth
Hear it every Christmas time
But hope and history won't rhyme
So what's it worth
This peace on Earth
Peace on Earth
Peace on Earth
Peace on Earth
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